Week 7 Review

Before

Week 4

Week 7

It really has been a wonderful week for me. It seems something has shifted. I feel like while I am still detoxing and cleaning out I feel as if I have moved on to a more productive stage. The first part of this juice feast I feel like ALL my energy was being spent to heal and to clean and there was little left for me. Lately I have been feeling quite a bit more energy and this new found sense of excitement. I want to do things. I want to do everything. I am excited about my future and have a sense of clarity that I am enjoying immensely.

I have felt that everything I have been doing for the last few years was so perfect and that there was something that it was all leading up to. I have been trained in hypnotherapy, nutritional consulting, The Journey, and Anne Wigmore's detox method. I know that there is something big that is going to come out of all this for me and I feel that I am nearing the end of this part of my life and that everything is going to be coming together soon, perfectly.

I have decided to take a raw chef course that is held here in Chicago. I will take the first one in June when I have completed my juice feast (gotta taste that food ya know!) and go from there. I can see myself teaching raw "cooking" classes (you know I have all that restaurant experience :o)and I know that even if I choose not to go that route I will have learned a lot for myself and who knows, maybe my family too.

I am also thinking seriously about becoming a juice feasting consultant. It seems right to me and I will probably go ahead and do it. I just haven't got that perfect "yes" answer that I like to get. I think it is coming though.

I have begun writing some things down that I have been thinking about for a book of sorts. I have been thinking about it for about a year now and suddenly it has started to take form right here on my lovely computer. I just feel like the time is right and things seem so easy.

As I write this I still feel a bit of hesitation and fear about putting myself out there. I had this voice that said, "Who are you to write a book? You can't write a book?" Notice how instead of saying I began writing a book, I wrote, writing some things down for a book of sorts. Ha ha. I think that is funny. Well, I know what I need to do to move past it, just like every other obstacle I have come across. Meet it head on.

So there is a lot of change and excitement going on here for me. I am feeling hopeful and productive and so grateful for this time. I have never taken time to care for myself and to care about myself. This juice feast hasn't just been about the physical healing. It has been a wonderful emotional and spiritual journey for me. A journey into loving myself and believing in myself. What a true gift!

Penni asked:

Do you have an ultimate goal in mind of what you'd like to weigh, or does that even matter to you at this point?

I don't really care about the weight portion. Well, I guess I shouldn't say that. I do care. I want to look good. I just don't know what the number will look like. I know 130 on some looks great and others, well not so good. I tend to be rather flabby and lacking muscle since I have been sedentary for so long but I imagine this will change when I begin to rebuild my muscles. I will just wait it out and see what happens.

Well, on to week 8! Thank you all for your support, well wishes and uplifting comments when I need them the most. You always make my day and bring a little smile to my face and a pitter patter to my heart. Wishing you all a juicy day!

Day 49

Photo by KandyJaxx on Flickr

Juices in order of consumption
3/4 quart orange, pineapple, mango
Oh my gosh!!! You want to talk about heaven in a glass? I almost cried, it tasted so good. It was a bit too sweet for me so I gave the last 1/4 quart to my hubby.

1 quart Boston lettuce, celery, tomato, alfalfa, garlic, kelp

1 quart spinach, pear, kiwi, alfalfa, lemon

1 quart romaine, carrot, cilantro, collard green

4 quarts for me (well almost)! Yea me!

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Sleep
7.5 hours

Supplements
MSM
Probiotic - I am out.
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
None

Physically
I was feeling a bit tired today but it could have just been because it was a nice, lazy Sunday. My body is still sore from the yoga. How out of shape am I? Isn't that crazy? I am hoping to go back tomorrow.

Positive changes
Skin smooth
Losing weight
My husband keeps telling me that I am glowing as he kisses me. xoxo

Detox
Coated tongue
Mucus in throat and nose

Emotionally
I feel like I was on a bit of a roller coaster today. One minute I was feeling this deep bliss, contentment and joy and the next I was pissed and wanted to rip someones head off. Then I was back to joy and happiness. It was strange. It wasn't like my normal PMS. Usually I am just a bitch the entire time and don't feel loving or nice until the day before my period arrives. This was up and down, up and down. I just let it come though.

Craving
Movie theater popcorn
Macaroni and cheese

Trash Bag Tango
None

Meditation
I pulled this card from my Journey Cards:

Mystery

Those who know, don't know.
those who don't know, know.

Has a 'need to know' been arising lately? Have you been spending time trying to figure out the mysteries of life?

Give up the need to know. Cease asking 'Why?' Asking 'Why?' only leads you deeper into mind talk. If your thinking mind could have figured things out, it would have done so long ago.

Just take a big Mystery Bucket and throw all your questions, all your striving for answers into the bucket. 'Why did someone I love behave that way?' Don't know - into the bucket. 'Why do I feel the way I feel?' Don't know-into the bucket. 'What will happen tomorrow?' Don't know- into the bucket. In fact, throw all questions into the Mystery Bucket. Life is a mystery, unknowable and divine. Be content to rest in this mystery.

Ramblings
My husband and I took the kids to see Horton Hears a Who tonight. It was a cute movie and I really enjoyed it. The animation was fabulous and I couldn't get over what a good job they did making Horton look like Jim Carey. I mean the expressions were so spot on. Very cute.

It did get the hubby and I talking about life a bit which was cool. On the way home we talked about living on the speck, multiple realities, and What the Bleep Down the Rabbit Hole . It is pretty cool when a cartoon gets you thinking.

So you may be able to tell by the picture above that I had a bit of a lazy Sunday (just substitute the glass of wine for a jug-o-juice). I pretty much took it easy. I caught up on some posts on the computer, sent out some info on the green smoothie cleanse for my friend, read a bit, took a loooong shower and then went to the movies. It was nice though.

Today, day 49 brings me back 16 years in my retracing. 16 years ago I was 22 and pregnant with my first son. I was working in my dad's bar as a manager and living with my first husband. Times were not the greatest. He was very volatile and would explode at any moment. Huh, I just started thinking that maybe this is where my roller coaster behavior is stemming from. That is exactly what my life was like back then! Wow, it is amazing to figure stuff out as I type. It's like therapy and you guys are my therapists. Ha, pretty cool. It makes total sense.

I imagine that I should have some pretty good liver detoxing going on for the next 24 days. That will take me back to 14 years old when I started drinking. I would have to go back to 11 years for when I started smoking cigarettes. Yes, I was in 6th grade. I can remember it like it was yesterday.

You see, I remember watching TV and movies where the characters were stressed out, having a rough time and unhappy. They would always seem to grab a cigarette and start smoking and it looked like they got some relief from it and felt better. My home life was very stressful. My parents were both very volatile and fought A LOT! So one day I left for school early and by myself. I went to the senior center that was on the way to school and went in and bought a pack of cigarettes. I walked a little further to the church steps where I sat down and lit up. I was so hoping it would make me feel better but alas, it only was disgusting.

It didn't stop me from smoking though. Word got out that I was one of "those" kids and the other kids like me started wanting to hang out and smoke after school. Sure, why not. I was cool. I was actually reported for smoking on school property. They came and confiscated my cigarettes out of the rosin compartment in my viola case.

My dad was pissed! He came into the school and spanked me in front of the gymnasium filled with kids, dragged me out, and drove me to the store where he sent my mom in to get a pack of camel non filtered. He took me home and made me smoke them until I was so dizzy I couldn't walk and threw up. Didn't matter. I continued to smoke on and off for the next 14 years.

Hmm, I guess I just spilled the beans about something way ahead of time. Now what will I tell you when I get back to the age of 11? Don't worry, that was a rough year so I will have plenty more stories to tell.

Sweet dreams my juice feasting friends.

Day 48

Photo by Darkmatter on Flickr

Juices in order of consumption
3/4 quart orange strawberry

1 quart romaine, Boston red lettuce, tomato, celery, cilantro, garlic

1 quart romaine , carrots, apple, celery

That's it. We had people over til late and I thought I would get another juice in but my stomach just couldn't do it. Gassy and bloated doesn't make you want more juice. I have to do better.

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today 151

Sleep
9 hours

Supplements
MSM- I decided that I want to try taking my MSM again. I gave it up very early on in the feast because of my upset stomach. I really want to try and incorporate it back in so here we go. Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening - I am out. I have to make a trip to the health food store.
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
My body was so sore that I couldn't hardly walk much less exercise. I needed to rest it. Just bending over to sit was so painful. UGH.

Physically
Once again, I am sitting here trying to come up with something to say about how I felt physically and nothing is really coming to me. I felt fine. How boring is that? I didn't feel spectacular and I didn't feel horrible. Just fine.

Positive changes
Smooth skin
Weight loss
Friends are beginning to comment on how much better I look

Detox
Coated tongue
Red bumps on legs
Bumps on upper arms
I know you probably don't want to read this but I have been passing things in the bathroom that I know I am not injesting. Possibly undigested food or...I don't know what. Gotta love that cleansing.

Emotionally
I had a rather up and down day today. I was feeling pretty serene and happy for much of the day. I was either running a kid to an event or relaxing and reading. I managed to clean my house too. It was pretty good. Then my 2 teenagers got into a physical fight. This is not new. They do this often. My oldest came down crying and I talked to both of them. It didn't go well and I found myself in a funk. My husband came home from being gone all day and I was in a pissy mood. We had a bit of a run around and I just felt like shit.

The funny thing is that I found myself thinking; "What the hell is wrong with you Michelle? Snap out of it. You don't want to feel like this." But I really couldn't seem to get out of the funk. My husband left and went to the store and by the time he got back things settled down a bit and shortly after our guests started to arrive and I was fine. We had a lot of fun in the evening playing cards and talking.

Cravings
There was an onion dip with pretzels, some cheese spread with crackers and a tortilla dip put out on my counter for the whole evening. I don't know if I was craving it or just craving the idea of it.
Trash Bag Tango
None

Meditation
None- It is the weekend you know ;o)

Ramblings
One of my friends who was over told me that she wants to start juicing on Monday. She doesn't know how long she will do it for but she wanted my help. I know she wants to do it strictly for weight loss so I am thinking about forwarding this post from Hanlie. She also doesn't have a juicer or a Vitamix and is coming from a SAD diet. I suggested that she start with a Green Smoothie cleanse and see how that goes until she gets a way to make the juice. It should be interesting to see how this plays out.

I have to admit that I am getting bored with my blog posts lately. There doesn't seem to be much excitement going on and I have been so busy with other things that I haven't had much introspection. I don't want to stop posting about my day because this is a record for me as well. I will have to try and mix it up a bit. If there is anything you would like to hear more about or something you enjoyed, please let me know so I can get a little guidance.

xoxo

Day 47

Photo by Essjay in NZ on Flickr

Juices in order of consumption
1 quart orange, celery, spinach

1 quart romaine, pear, kiwi, lemon

1 quart Romaine, carrot, cilantro, garlic, kelp

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today 151

Total 22.5

Sleep
7.5 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
1 hour yoga - I taped it on the Veria Channel. It was pretty good.

Physically
My body felt very stiff and sore from the yoga yesterday. That is why I decided to do it again. I wanted to stretch and get my body moving. I am still so sore I can hardly move. I guess my body needed the exercise. Other than that I feel pretty good. I wish I was having more action in the bowel department. I am now taking 5 of those colon cleanse pills each day and I am still not feeling right. What I wouldn't do for some flax crackers to just push everything out.

Positive changes
Skin is smooth but I noticed today that my skin is still very dry on my legs. I mean desert floor dry. I haven't noticed because I was putting oil on them everyday and I didn't do it for a couple of days and the flaky, white, dry skin is back.
Losing weight
I look better
I have a lot of energy

Detox
Tongue is coated
red bumps on legs popping up
Still have bumps on arms
mucus in nose and throat

Emotionally
I am so happy today. I feel so good. I want to run around and jump and dance and sing and... everything! I feel like I am walking around smiling all day long. I am listening to music and dancing around the kitchen. Did I mention that I am so happy?!

Cravings
None

Trash Bag Tango
None

Meditation
I did a brief meditation after yoga and I pulled this card from my Journey deck:

Physical Health

Your body is the sacred vessel you've been given to experience life, so honour it, cherish it, nourish it. This card invites you to attend to your body's health and well being in some way. Perhaps you need more rest or meditation, more nourishing food or more exercise. This card may also be an invitation to undergo a Physical Journey process to clear out cell memories and emotional patterns.

Take some long deep breaths in and out. Feel yourself growing spacious and still, and let your awareness go to a place of stress or tensions inside your body. If it had words, what might it be saying? Be still and listen. How do the words make you feel? Be open to what your body is communicating. Surround the feeling with your own love. Open deeper and ask again. Your body is so grateful for any attention you give it. It will respond easily to your loving care.

Ramblings
I took my son to the doctor today for his hurt finger. The x-ray is showing something is wrong with the knuckle in the hand but the doctors couldn't read it. It looks like the bone is jammed together. All the other bones have a space between them but this one didn't. They have to wait for the radiologist to read it on Monday. Until then he has a big splint and can't play anything. I hope it heals quickly!

While I was there the nurse asked if I was his mom and when I said yes she said I looked too young to be his mom. She said she thought I was his older sister. Woo Hoo!!!!! That felt good. People have been saying things like that to my mom for years, in fact they used to ask her if my children were hers and she would say yes! Now I know how good it feels.

Lately I have been spending my surplus of energy on trying to get my future planned out. Next year my youngest son goes to 1st grade and I will have the entire day to myself. I would like to be doing something to make some $$$$. I have put out a few feelers for things and I am waiting to hear back. It's strange, I am not hearing back from about 3-4 different things that I sent emails about including the soccer place for my husband's birthday and the message I left at the school regarding that shooting rumor. I am being tested and so far I am passing. Normally I am a very impatient person and get aggravated. Not today.

I am going to be without my computer for the entire day and night tomorrow. I don't even know what I am going to do. I probably won't be able to post since I won't have it. So everyone have a wonderful weekend and stay juicy!

Day 46

Juices in order of consumption
1 quart Romaine, spinach, celery, pear, kiwi, alfalfa sprouts

1 quart red Boston, celery, tomato, alfalfa sprouts, cilantro, Kelp

1 quart carrot, celery, apple

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Sleep
7.5 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
1 hour of yoga - It was a great class. I felt so good after it was finished. I wish there were classes everyday. It was a different instructor and I liked her style.

Physically
I had so much energy during the day that I could hardly seem to contain it. As the night wore on my energy dropped and now I am dead tired and ready for bed.

Positive changes
Skin smooth
Losing weight
Stomach feeling better

Detox
Coated tongue

Emotionally
Today was another great day. I am very happy and the yoga gave me this fantastic euphoria! Fantastic!

Cravings
I spent a good portion of my day surfing the web and looking at food pictures. I don't know why I ma doing it to myself. It doesn't make any sense but, there it is. I know I am not going to eat anything though. I am weird.

Trash Bag Tango
None

Meditation
I pulled the Second Chance card again. You can read that card here. Strange that I would have pulled that card for a second time already. There are over 40 cards.

Ramblings
I want to share a comment that I got on yesterday's post. It is from the fabulous Penni who is currently juice feasting and sharing her experience in the most beautiful way on her blog. She commented on my dream that I had the other day and her words gave me goosebumps so I thought I would share them all with you:

Hello Lovely! I think the dream about the baby girl is that you are expecting a new birth....the baby girl is you and as you juice feast it peels back the layers and you are experiencing your own rebirth. You must be getting stronger and closer to the "delivery" if you can see hands and features poking through. How exciting! Penni

Wow, I like it Penni!!! Thank you so much for that beautiful thoughts. I guess it really resonated with me since it made all my hairs stand up and gave me goosebumps. You are awesome!

Day 46 is officially half way to 92. I am half way there! On my retracing Journey I find myself back 15 years. My first son was about 6 mo. old during that time. I can't believe I managed to get through one of the worst time in my life without too much trouble. I was married to my ex-husband, had a 7 month old son, and was 4 months pregnant and my husband and I split up. I moved out of our home and back in with my mom. It turned out that my ex was having an affair and had managed to get another woman pregnant at the same time. I was devastated and crushed. It wasn't that we had this great relationship because we definitely did not but I guess I had this picture in my head of this dreamy family that I lost. It was delusional but still very real for me at the time.

Of course now I know that it was the exact thing that should have happened so that I could have the life I have now. I often tell my husband that if we would have met when I was younger I would have never dated him. He was too nice. What is it with some of us women who have this bad boy idea? I am so glad I have matured past that and I probably owe my ex for that.

My baseball playing son thinks he may have broken his pointer finger on his pitching hand tonight. He accidentally hit his 5 year old brother in the head and it is killing him. He has broken many fingers and is a pretty tough kid so if he is icing and in a lot of pain, I tend to believe him. I am just hoping it is a sprain or something so that he can heal quickly and be able to play. Sports really is his life so it would be really hard on him if he couldn't play. We are going to see how it feels tomorrow and if need be I will take him for an x-ray.

Have a great day.

Day 45

Photo by Me!

Juices in order of consumption
3/4 quart celery, spinach, pineapple

1 quart celery, carrot, lemon, purple kale, tomato, apple, bean sprouts

1 quart celery, tomato, romaine, garlic, alfalfa sprouts, cilantro

I made a fourth quart to have but I couldn't drink it after my colonic.

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Sleep
6 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
Walking 15 minutes

Physically
I was thinking about what to write here instead of the usual "I felt good." and it occurred to me that my physical self is a bit of an afterthought these days. I mean, usually when I am not feeling good there is so much to focus on, to think about and to obsess about. When I think about my body these days, there isn't much to think about because it seems to be functioning pretty well. It is easy to take it for granted when it isn't "speaking" to me so I will give it some public acclaim:

My sweet, sweet body, you are feeling fantastic and looking better and better everyday. Thank you so much for everything that you do for me. Thank you for
giving me energy from my juicy juices and thank you for knowing how to breath
all on your own thus giving me life. Thank you for taking me places and for
making my day so effortless that I didn't even have to think about you. That
doesn't mean I don't love you cuz I do! I am so grateful for everything that you
do!

Positive changes
Skin is smooth
Stomach is feeling better
Energy is improving

Detox
Tongue is still coated
Mucus in throat and nose

Emotionally
I am on fire these days. I want to go, go, go. I want to do everything. I am excited and happy. I am being mindful of yesterdays words and trying to stay pleased with where I am right now and I feel this new vibrancy and joy that I haven't had in quite a while. I feel like I can do anything and everything.

Cravings
None

Trash Bag Tango
Spring cleaning of car

Meditation
My daily Journey Card:

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is the key to true healing. When we forgive, we let go of our blame games and our stories of hurt and judgement and let Grace flow freely into that area of our lives, flooding our beings and healing our bodies.

Check inside: is there something you regret doing or are judging in yourself? Or are you withholding complete forgiveness from someone in your life? Your lack of forgiveness only hurts you. It's time to empty our all the stored hurt and pain. It's time to let out all the judgements. Forgiveness will flood naturally into the emptiness that remains. Forgive with all your heart, unconditionally. You'll find yourself resting in ease, embraced in a healing Grace.

Ramblings
Playing around with my colored pencils a couple of days ago gave me the above drawing. It was fun to do and helped to get my creativity surge out a bit. I did a few other things for a little fun.


I went for my colonic today and it wasn't such a great experience. It seems that my body was not wanting to let go of what was in there. I wasn't releasing. It didn't feel too good. I got that sick feeling in my stomach that I normally get only it just didn't go away. What a bummer especially since I still had to pay :o) I was planning on going to yoga after but I felt so yucky that I came home and just rested.

Today was pretty nice around here. The temperature got up into the high 40s so woo hoo. People were out everywhere. Kids riding there bikes, playing basketball, adults cleaning garages and jogging. You would think it was 70 degrees out. Once when we went to visit my dad in Florida there happened to be a cold spell. It was pretty darn cold and it was raining. That didn't stop my kids from getting in the pool. I was sitting under an umbrella with my winter coat on watching them. I went into the little cafe they have to get a cup of tea and the locals were amazed at my kids. They said, "You guys must be from up north. No one around here would even think about doing that!" Isn't it funny how everything is relative.

Now that the weather is warming up I have to begin to rethink my juicing routine. I have been buying enough produce to last about 3-4 days on average. There isn't enough room in my refrigerator to hold the food for my family and my feast so I have been keeping it on shelves in my garage. It has been cold enough to keep it chilled without freezing it. Perfect. Now that my garage is warming up I have to figure out what the heck to do. I wish I could get a second fridge in my garage but alas, there is no $ for that right now. The last thing I want to do is shop more! Yuck.

Today I got one of those broadcast phone calls from our school district saying that several schools including my sons' high school had been in lock down. It scared the living shit out of me. I think I almost fainted when I heard the words - lock down. It seems there was a man spotted walking down the street with a gun so they locked down the schools in the area. Now I live in a pretty rural area. When you go to watch a football game at the high school you can watch the horses on the farm right behind the field. It doesn't seem right that someone would be walking around here with a gun. Well, it was...wait for it... a paintball gun. Can you imagine? All of that for a paintball gun. I can't tell you how relieved I was.

Then my son tells me that the day before there was supposed to be a shooting in -A- lunch but the school officials pulled the kid out before hand so there was no trouble. I don't know if this is true but if it is I would like to get a call about that! I think I should know if this kind of thing is truly going on in my sons' school. Of course it could just be a rumor, you know how that is. I am going to call the school tomorrow and find out. It is so crazy!

I am off to dream land. Well, not really. I am still not remembering my dreams too much but oh my gosh, I forgot to tell you about the dream I had the other night! I dreamt that I was pregnant! The baby was pushing through my skin and I could see its hands and face as if it was being pressed up against a fabric. It was so bizarre. It was a girl, something I know nothing about :o)

In the dream I was fascinated by this little baby and so excited to be able to see it before it was born. I had a happy feeling even though it sounds kind of weird. The thing is, the absolute last thing I want to do is have another baby. I have been blessed 5 times and I have said it before and I will say it again; you could 100% guarantee me a girl and I would tell you no thanks. My husband has been snipped as they say so this is not in the cards for me. I don't know much about dream interpretation but I am hoping this has some deeper, cryptic meaning. Anyone?

Oh my gosh, this post got really long and drawn out. Sorry. Sweet dreams!

Day 44

OK, so here is the picture update from top to bottom:

Before, week 4, and week 6

Juices in order of consumption
1 quart spinach, celery, orange

1 quart watermelon

1 quart red boston lettuce, celery, cilantro, tomato, snap peas, baby frisee, kelp

1 quart spinach, celery, pineapple

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today 152.5

Sleep
7 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
Boo hoo. I am bad.

Physically
I felt good today. I had a good amount of energy. I had a bit of heartburn again today but not too bad. It passed quickly.

Positive changes
Nothing has changed. I am not writing it again. :o)

Detox
Ditto above

Emotionally
I am very excited today. I am busy coming up with plans for my hubby's party. I will tell you about it below. I have also been thinking about taking some raw chef courses and that has got me a bit excited too. I am not sure if I will be able to do it yet since it is in another state and quite a bit of moola but I am thinking about it. We'll see.

Cravings
None

Trash Bag Tango
No time for that cuz I was doing so much other stuff today.

Meditation
I pulled this card from my Journey deck today:

Acceptance

"Clearly, what is meant to be, is. The peace is always in that."
Gangaji

Are you finding it difficult to accept things the way they are? Are you fighting your current circumstances, wishing for something different? What if everything taking place in this moment is exactly as it should be? What if you were just to relax?

When you accept that everything is as it is, the natural course of action flows freely. When you continue to fight, resist, rail against what is here, you keep those circumstances in motion.

When you truly relax and let what is just be, the next appropriate action is effortlessly revealed.

Acceptance leads to wholesome right action.

As I typed the words it really hit me that I am always trying to figure out my next move. Always hoping to be better, get better. It reminds me of what I read in The Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. The whole concept of going downstream. How we often struggle and try to turn our boat upstream when we should really just let go and let the stream take us where we need to go.

In theory, it makes perfect sense. My uncle who lives in Australia lives his life like that. A few years back he said that the Universe was telling him that he had to come back to America. He really didn't want to but the Universe kept telling him so he did it. I can't understand that concept just yet. I can't seem to get out of my mind enough to really trust.

I guess I shouldn't say that because I have done that before. When I went to my first Journey intensive I KNEW that I was going to go through the entire practitioner program. I didn't have the money and I didn't know how I was going to get it but I didn't need to. I called my husband and I said, "I am going to do this. I have to do this. I don't know how but I know it will work out." That was so unusual for me.

So I guess I can do it, I just don't live my life from that place all the time. It is an occasional thing that pops up for me. I guess it is a process just like anything and perhaps I will begin to live my life from that place more often. It sounds like a good place to be.

Ramblings
So, I put some calls out regarding my hubby's party to see what I could do. I am waiting to hear back from the location but my current plan is to rent this large indoor soccer facility that we have about 15 minutes from the house. My husband has played there religiously since we moved here about 6 years ago.

I think I am going to go with a Survivor theme. It is the only show my husband watches on tv. He loves all of the challenges so I have been searching the web and there are a lot of good ideas out there. My husband is so competitive especially with the other dads and I think it would be sooo funny to have them all competing against each other Survivor style. I would have some challenges just for the kids too. I will have to work out the details.

I think I am going to turn the party into a fundraiser for a local charity and have everyone bring things to donate instead of gifts. If I do it right I may be able to get some more donations too. We have this old friend who plays in a band so I am going to see if I can get them to play. I think it has huge potential to be a ton of fun.

I am anxiously awaiting my opportunity to catch up on the Oprah, Eckhart class that happened last night. I couldn't log on because hubby had a soccer game and I had kiddies to care for. I am so glad they have it up to download.

I am happy today. My life is full and sometimes I forget just how lucky I am. Not today!

Day 43

Photo by extra noise on Flickr

Juices, Supplements etc. in order of consumption
1 quart orange, celery, spinach

1 quart romaine, celery, cilantro, garlic, tomato

1 quart carrot, celery, ginger, romaine

1 quart pineapple, celery, spinach

Woo hoo! I managed 4 quarts today.

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Still not caring too much about the weight. I am weighing in every couple of days. Whenever I think about it.

Sleep
6.5 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
None again! I know, I know, it's terrible!

Physically
I felt pretty good today. My stomach seems to be feeling better. I got some new enzymes and I think (knock on wood) that they are helping. I mean it is really feeling better. Still not much going on in the bathroom dept. though. Since the last big session on I think it was Thursday I haven't had any action. I am taking 3 of those colon cleanse pills a day. Maybe I should up it to 4.

Positive changes
Skin is smooth
Losing weight
My stomach is feeling better!

Detox
Coated tongue
Tired
Horrible gas. I don't even want to sit by me.

Emotionally
I am feeling a bit cagey today. Is that even a word? I am feeling this creative urge inside that wants to get out. I just don't know how to let it out. This is not the first time in my life that this has happened. I've been doodling and playing around with some things to get it out of my system. I've also been surfing some art blogs and that has been fun.

I have been feeling good. I felt better about the juice today. It is still pretty boring but I don't want to run screaming from the room when I look at it.

Cravings
None

Trash Bag Tango
None, too busy doodling.

Meditation
I made a relaxation audio and I listened to it myself. It is weird meditating to my own voice but it worked. I was very relaxed.

Ramblings
I realized that I forgot to take my weekly photo and put it in my week 6 review. That's two weeks in a row. I honestly don't think I look any different but I will take one tomorrow and post it. Hopefully my phone will take a decent picture.

Hanlie has asked that I take the music player off of auto play so her hubby can sleep while she surfs. If it were anyone but her, I would say no way, :o) but her wish is my command. Love you Hanlie!!

Would spring please come to Chicago? It actually snowed again today. I am over it already! My son has a baseball game in 5 days. It would be nice if I didn't need a heater to watch it. I want to see some green and some flowers and smell the fresh breeze. I wouldn't even mind a few roaring thunderstorms with some awesome lightning. Anything but snow!

It is way past my bedtime so I am off to dream land. Maybe I'll have a good dream that I can tell you about tomorrow! Nighty night.