Photo by Allison at Raw OdysseyWeek 6 has been a bit of a different week for me. I have not experienced the same level of joy and peace with my juice feasting as I have in the past. I have been struggling with the juice and fighting negative thoughts on a daily basis. I have been trying to stay positive and on track and yet there has been this underlying irritation with the whole process.
There have been days when I have found myself in my head saying, "I hate juice! I can't drink one more glass of f-ing green juice!" I have seriously thought about soaking some prunes this week and moving on. I have read other blogs of people who have decided to stop to see if I resonate with them. I have talked extensively with my husband about it and spent much time in quiet contemplation. The thing I always seem to end the thinking sessions with is this; "what then?"
What do I do next? I am not healed, I am not at my ideal weight. Where do I go from here? Why would I quit when I haven't seen it through? I know quitting isn't the answer. The new question became; "How do I continue from a place of gratitude, joy and peace?" Good question and one I am still investigating.
Here is what I have come up with so far:
1. I have added a playlist to my blog. I filled it with some songs I enjoy, some that make me smile, laugh and think of happy times in my life. Some of them are from a mixed love CD that my husband made me when I left for Italy. They bring me so much joy and happiness when I hear them. I have set it up to automatically begin playing and if you enjoy that then Yea for me. If not, please let me know. If enough of you reply I can change it.
2. I have decided that I am focusing too much of my attention on this juice feast and this blog. It seems it is all I do and my life has become a bit unbalanced. I need to find some joy outside of this whole health, juice, internet world. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE interacting with you all so much that I don't quite know how I am going to figure this out yet but one thing I have decided to do is begin planning a big surprise birthday party for my husband's 40th birthday in Aug. I also want to start thinking about a 16th party for my oldest son in July. I will tell you more about all of this later. I think this will help me shift my focus a little.
3. I need to make a point to fit in exercise on a regular basis. I have been really bad about it and I think I need to just do it! I kind of push it off for only the days in which I feel perfect instead of sucking it up and doing it. This will have to change.
There will be more to come and I will keep you posted on how things are going. I am so grateful for all of the support I have received from all of you out there. It has really been helpful. I have found love, joy and a special connection with so many of you and I really do appreciate it.
Moving onto week 7 feeling hopeful and at peace with my decision!
PS, I wanted to tell you about today's photo. Allison at Raw Odyssey created that picture. Here is what she had to say about it:
I wish everyone reading this blog would copy that photo onto their own blogs and websites. Spread the peace and love! Drink your greens and eat your raw foods!!
So, consider it spread!
4 comments:
I prefer the music to not play automatically, since I do a lot of my blog reading in the evening, while my husband's already sleeping. Our pc is in our bedroom. By now I know which sites have playlists, so I don't read them in the evening. Before entering now, I had to go and mute my sound.
I like the widget though, and tried to get one myself this afternoon, but they couldn't upload my songs. I'll try again tomorrow.
I hear what you're saying. I've reached the same conclusion - juice feasting is not my only "theme", so I am filling my days with all kinds of interesting things!
You'll get your groove back again, my friend!
I could practically cut and paste your blog into mine today, because that is EXACTLY how I'm feeling. Especially the "what next" part. I know for sure I'm not finished with this, but I'm nauseated just thinking about the green juice. I may have to go find a watermelon or something after reading David and Katrina's blog today. I'm also spending way too much time on blogs and JF, but it kinda keeps me going, and it's only for 92 days, not forever, so I'm just going to roll with it for now. Keep your chin up. We will figure this thing out.
Pixy
Michelle, I am so glad you mentioned feeling unbalanced focusing so much on everything that goes together with Juice Feasting, since I feel the same, and I am only on Day 11 of the MJF.
I need to explore this feeling deeper. I am very sensitive (read: prone) to obsession, and I fear that I will become obsessed focusing so much on this one aspect of my life when really I have such a strong need for FLOWING through life.
I want to FLOW!
I want to BE!
Good luck with your journey!
Michelle,
I have been following your blog since a few days before my own juice feast began, (I'm on day 23). I just wanted you to know that I love your posts. I thoroughly appreciate your honesty, and I can relate to much of what you have been experiencing. I find the ups and downs we all seem to be going through fascinating, and I think it is amazing that you are on this journey while living amongst your entire family who are not on the feast. I support you in staying with all of the feelings and doing whatever it is that you know feels most supportive, whether or not it "makes sense". Thank you for your inspiration.
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