Sunday, January 27, 2008

How I Got Here

Today is the Very First Day of the Rest of my Life

This is the Beginning of a New Day.
I Can Waste It ... or Use It For Good.
But What I Do Today is Important,
Because I am Exchanging a Day of My Life For It.
Leaving in It's Place Something That I Have Traded For It.
I Want It to Be Gain and Not Loss,
Good and Not Evil,
Success and Not Failure,
in Order That I Not Regret the Price I Have Paid For It.
I Will Give 100% of Myself Just For Today,
For You Never Fail Until You Stop Trying.
I Will Be the Kind of Person I have Always Wanted To Be ...
I Have Been Given This Day to Use as I Will.

Welcome to my juice feasting journey. I am excited to be beginning and if I am totally honest I am a little scared too. I know that there are powerful changes coming and I know that they are going to be life changing. I also know that some of what is going to come up and out won't be so pleasant physically, mentally and emotionally. But I know that this is what I need to be doing for myself.

I am embarking on this journey to cleanse my body of built up toxins and fat. To help return it to its natural healthy state that it hasn't known in a VERY long time. I am embarking on this journey to flush out and face my addictions to food that have made me feel out of control. I am embarking on this journey to take control of my life and to clear out any negative beliefs I have and to begin to love myself.

I want to tell you a little bit about myself so you know who I am and what brought me to the decision to begin this juice feast. I am a 38 year old woman who lives in Illinois. I am married to a wonderful and supportive man and we have 5 boys. Dallas 15, Cody 14, Devin 10, Liam 7, and Aidan 5. We also have two dogs in the house, the only other females to be found. Bear is a Schipperke and Snickers is a Chocolate Lab.

Most of my time is spent revolving around my kids' school and sporting activities. They all play several sports so we are kept pretty busy. Up until a few years ago that was all I did. I didn't know the meaning of the word balance. I was severly stressed out and ended up in the hospital for a few days. The medical community could find no source for my symptoms which were racing heart followed by a severe slowing of my heart rate and numbness on my left side. After extensive testing I was left to figure it out for myself.

I began learning all I could about nutrition, stress relief, meditation, yoga, hypnosis, Reiki, cellular healing, and energy work. I went through The Journey Practitioners training and completed it in the summer of last year. It was one of the most powerful things that I have experienced and has changed my life for the better.

On the physical front I am about 40-50 lbs overweight. I have a list of physical symptoms a mile long that I won't burden you with. I know that my body is on a downward spiral to illness and if left to continue without an intervention will end up being something serious that the doctors will be able to diagnose.

Because I have learned so much about nutrition and what I "should" eat and yet I still continue to make poor choices I know that there is something deeper that is keeping me on this path. I feel that I cannot clean out the body without doing the mental and spiritual work to free myself from my addictions. For that reason I will be focusing on this a great deal in this blog along with the actual how to's of juice feasting.

My plan is to begin following positive affirmations from the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. I have also created an inspirational movie with beautiful pictures, a a beautiful song along with affirmations taken out of the book that relate to my issues. I will watch it everyday to pump up the power of my affirmations. You can watch it here.

I also plan on doing Journey processes on a regular basis around whatever issues are coming up for me. The feasting will bring up the negative beliefs and cellular memories, and the Journey will clear them out.

So that is the plan. I haven't commited to a specific time period for this juice feast. I will just play it by ear and see how it goes. My only other experience is with the master cleanse which I did for 14 days. I feel this feast is a healthier way to heal the body and will be easier to stay on for an extended period of time.

I look forward to getting to getting to know all of you and sharing this experience with you. Let the journey begin!

1 comment:

Penni in Tulsa said...

Michelle...How very exciting to read your post! I am truly happy for you because I can so relate to the place you have arrived. We are close in age and have similar weight and health goals. Undertaking a juice feast is a big deal, but once in it, you'll be so free and won't even miss meals very much. I have never done one for more than 18 days.....are you thinking of doing 92 days like the others?