Thursday, March 6, 2008

Day 39

Photo by Denis Collette on Flickr

Juices, Supplements etc. in order of consumption
1 quart Boston lettuce, pear, celery, mint
1 quart romaine, celery, garlic, cilantro, carrot, red pepper
1 quart romaine, celery, pear, mint
1 quart romaine, red pepper, carrot, lime, cilantro

Can you believe it?! I got in all 4 quarts. I feel like I should be getting some kind of an award. I just want to thank my family and all the people who have supported me. ;o)
Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Sleep
7 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
5 min. on the rebounder
I have to make an effort to exercise during the day now because my nights are getting busier and I often can't find the time at night.

Physically
I felt pretty good for most of the day. I started to get some gas and heartburn as the night wore on but its not horrible.

Positive changes
Smooth skin
Weight loss

Detox
Coated tongue
Mucus in throat
Red bumps on upper legs

Emotionally
Today was a good day as far as emotions. I was able to let a lot of emotion go today during my journey process which I will talk about more below.

Cravings
I am craving food. Just food. These cravings the last couple of days are different than the ones I had before. I can't quite explain it but I will try. In the first days I didn't really have any cravings. Then I started having these cravings for something to fill me up, to comfort me. I was craving heavy foods like Italian food. Then I was craving the food as a treat, something to make me feel special (this happened when I was on vacation).
Now I am simply craving food. There doesn't seem to be an emotion behind it. I keep listening for it and I haven't found it yet. I find myself looking at pictures of raw food and dreaming about what I am going to be eating when I finish my feast. Russell's blog is KILLING ME!!! Warning, don't go there if you are juice feasting unless you are ready to be tempted by the most delectable looking photographs of food!!! I am thinking about salads, fruit, nori rolls and exotic dishes. I am also craving fish with tons of veggies.
I was happy to see that Juicy Ben is also partaking in the food porn on the web. He has been surfing and looking at recipes and drooling just like me. He has some pictures of peppers that may make the ladies out there blush.

Trash Bag Tango
Cleaned my desk TWICE. I cleaned it and hubby came in and then I had to clean it again.

Meditation
Did a Journey Process today - more below
Rested in the sun 20 min. - more below
I pulled the Joy Journey card:
Joy is in you, all around you, everywhere. Have you been seeking, striving to get a taste of joy through ceaseless activity, through others, through jobs- constantly hoping to get the next morsel? Stop. Your frantic searching puts joy at a distance, always out of reach. Just bring your awareness to this moment. As you're looking at this card, notice how it looks, how it feels in your hand, its beauty, its weight. Then notice the sounds around you. Let yourself become fully present to this very moment.
A natural flow of joy is waiting here. Previously you've overlooked it. When you rest in just this moment, a quiet flow of joy bubbles up from within. You are the joy that you are seeking.

Ramblings

Ever since my huge process at the Journey Intensive last weekend I have been feeling a bit out of sorts, like there was some unfinished business. I decided to spend my free time this morning doing a Journey process.
It was quite powerful and finished up what came up for me over the weekend. It was so huge and exhausting over the weekend that I guess I just didn't complete it. Well I did it today. I felt so good, so light. I was laughing out loud through tears. I am so grateful.
I did a physical journey which allows you to go into your body and find a cellular memory that is stored in a particular area. It is amazing how this process works. They do it with small children and when they finish up they draw before and after pictures of that part of the body. I remember this story about this little girl who went into her ear. When she finished up and drew her picture there was a doctor there who saw the picture and said that it was drawn perfectly and correctly as if in a medical book. He was blown away and I was too.
Anyway, I found myself somewhere in my digestive system; small intestine or colon. It wasn't pretty in there and there were lots of moving creatures that didn't look good or feel very good. After I got my memory and cleared it out I went back and could see the creepy crawlies dying off and being released. It felt so good!
It got me thinking about my candida. I know I have this and keep skirting around the issue. I have decided that I am going to have to meet this head on. I read the info that was on the juice feasting site regarding it and I once again looked into getting threelac. I was going to do this last year and never did it. I am going to talk to my husband to see if we have the money for me to start this up ASAP.
I know I can't truly heal without clearing out the candida that has been living in my body for so many years.
After my process I went up to take a shower. I usually do this earlier in the morning but today it was about 10:00am. After I got out of the shower I noticed that the sun was shining and because I have a southern exposure the sun was coming in my window. I opened up the blinds and tilted them down so no one could see in and the sun would shine on the ground. I put my towel on the floor and began to sunbathe in the nude right there on my bathroom floor. The sun felt so good warming up my whole body. It transported me back to Hawaii where my husband and I spent a week exactly one year ago.
I spent about 20 minutes lying there in the sun and feeling such joy, gratitude and love. Mmmm, it was delicious! Who needs warm weather?
Have a great night everyone!

4 comments:

Pippa said...

Wow, Michelle, that sounds wonderful, being able to get the sun over your whole body! Bliss!

I find the body Journeys the easiest to do, and absolutely fascinating. I have a whole sanctuary with different rooms inside me. It intrigues me so much that every person 'sees' their bodies in different ways. I am motivated to start doing this again thanks to your powerful positive experiences ... I do wonder if one can combine it with the healing effects of EFT. Time to experiment a bit!

Carrie Cegelis said...

Wow, cool stuff, Michelle.
I want days to sunbathe and go inside my ears and intestines! I'm picturing a little yellow submarine floating around through my body...
Sounds like you are turning up some great work in your feasting journey.
Juice on - isn't Ben over the top?? I love him so dearly!
xx
Carrie

Hanlie said...

Wow, I love your sunbathing journey. We need that liquid gold... I also spent some time in the sun yesterday (early, before it got too hot).

You sound at peace! I'm happy for you, my friend!

Penni said...

Hello Love! This really is a journey that we're on. I am enjoying reading about all of the work you are doing and the metamorphosis that is taking place inside and out. I imagine by the time I reach my 40th day of feasting, I too, will be obsessing a bit over food. I already find myself wandering into the kitchen with the intention of finding a snack and I have to snap out of the fog and remind myself- You're NOT eating now! It shows me how often I've turned to food, when I really need to turn my energy inward.

Love to you!
Penni