Friday, March 7, 2008

Day 40

Photo by Bart Maguire on Flickr
Juices, Supplements etc. in order of consumption
1 quart romaine, red pepper, celery, carrot, cilantro, lime
It was soooo bitter I could barely finish it. It is the same thing I drank yesterday that tasted good and today, yuck. Go figure.
1 quart spinach, celery, orange
1 quart romaine, celery, tomato, carrot, broccoli sprouts, cilantro, arugula
1 head romaine, 4 celery stalks, 4 small tomatoes, handful carrots, 2 oz sprouts, 1/2 bunch cilantro, handful of arugula
I've never juiced arugula so I wanted to be careful and not overdo it like I did with the watercress. It was good.
Two of my friends were over and they wanted to try my juice. I gave them some and they were surprised that it didn't taste too bad. Lucky me.

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ???

Sleep
7.5 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
zinc
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
None except lots of housecleaning

Physically
I was full of energy today. I got a lot done including shopping and a ton of housecleaning. I even got a lot done on the computer. It was helpful having my son at a friend's house for the afternoon.
The colon cleanse is starting to work a bit better. I had a very productive session in the bathroom today instead of 20 small sessions. It seems like I am moving things out that have been in there a long time by the looks and smell of it. Enough said! Probably too much!

Positive changes
Skin smooth
Weight loss

Detox
Coated tongue
Bad taste in mouth
Hands are dry

Emotionally
Today was a good day on the emotional front. We had company over (hence the cleaning) and we fed them a fajita buffet from a restaurant that we had some gift cards for. I made my juice and drank it while they ate. It wasn't too bad though. I mean the food looked and smelled divine but I knew I wasn't going to eat it so what the heck, why obsess. Funny because I wasn't feeling like that in the produce section earlier as you will read about below.

Cravings
Raw stir fry, strawberries, salad, marinated mushrooms, the list goes on and on.

Trash Bag Tango
Cleaned office

Meditation
Does listening to meditative music while cleaning count?

Ramblings
Day 40 has come and gone and it is so unbelievable to me that I have not eaten solid food in 40 days. I mean really, that is not something I ever envisioned myself doing. I am doing so much better now then I was earlier in the week. I seem to have gotten my second wind thank goodness.
It isn't that I am tied to any particular number of days that I HAVE to be doing this juice feast. I just know that I have not healed fully yet. I am still having stomach issues and digestion issues so stopping now seems rather pointless. On the other hand it is difficult to continue doing something that is challenging without seeing some kind of improvement. I know I have lost weight and I needed to do that. The real reason I began this feast was to heal my body so I am waiting patiently for the day I can drink 4 quarts without indigestion and when I feel like I have cleaned out more completely in the digestive area.
I am proud of myself for this endeavor however I am noticing my ego has been showing up in regard to this juice feast. The first time I noticed it was during shopping. I felt this moment of superiority over others who were there loading up there carts with processed foods. I was able to notice it and for that I am glad. I also noticed that when my friends were over I got an ego charge out of all the questions that were being asked. It made me feel special.
My instinct is to stop myself from these unhealthy thoughts and feelings and then I remember the words of Eckhart, "The only way to gradually go beyond the conditioning thought is to be a witness. You don't need to act on it or say go away, I don't want to be thinking this. That doesn't work." So I am bearing witness and allowing my awareness of all the tricky ways in which my ego makes me feel superior and special to grow and expand.
Today I went to the store to stock up and I was there forever. I was walking around the produce department and really looking at all of the food there. I was drawn to things like crazy. Things like a bag of veggies ready for stir fry, mushrooms, and strawberries. I wanted to make a huge salad, some raw pasta with a marinated portabella mushroom, I wanted to savor the texture of the food and swirl it around in my mouth.
I was looking at the recipe cards they had next to the produce and I found some good ones that can be made raw. Crunchy Cabbage Salad, Pear and Cranberry Salad, Citrus-Almond Grapes, Pomegranate and Pear Salsa. Mmmmmmm. I want it all and then some.
Sorry to torture any of you that are currently juice feasting. I can't seem to get over it though. I was thinking that by day 40 I should be over this craving food thing. I hope it winds down again soon. Thank goodness it calmed down at dinner.
As I was checking out the guy behind the register asked me if I was single! Ha ha. I noticed that he was looking at me "that way." You know what I am talking about. He tried not to, but you could tell. I wanted to laugh out loud and say, "I am 38, on my second marriage and the mother of 5 kids! How you like me now?" I just smiled and said no.
That's when he turned bright red and proceeded to tell me that he had a friend who was single and I looked like his type. How cute.
I have to say that I know it is my ego talking but it was nice to get a little attention. When I was young I used to get that type of attention all the time. My grandmother used to like to walk behind me because she got such a kick out of watching people look at me. Of course at the time I really didn't like the attention. It made me feel uncomfortable.
A few years ago I told my husband that I was beginning to feel invisible. No one ever even looked at me much less gave me a second look. I don't blame them, I didn't even want to look at myself so why would anyone want to look at me? So now, I am able to appreciate it and smile and give myself a little pat on the back for taking care of myself. Yea me!
I am going to go look at myself in the mirror ;o)

4 comments:

Ben Kaelan said...

Way to go hot sexy chica! :)

- Ben

PS: don't worry, I've been doing that too lately... I love spending time in front of the mirror lately! :)

Hanlie said...

Love that someone was checking you out! We can handle it!

Have a great day!

Lisa, aka Pixywinks said...

Way to go Chickaboombaaa! So much growth in 40 days. Hoorah for you!
Pixy

Kristi said...

Feeling good about the way you look and knowing that you are doing the right thing and taking care of yourself is not your ego, feeling guilty about it is :)