Friday, March 21, 2008

Day 54

Photo by Bullish 1974 on Flickr



Juices in order of consumption
1 quart spinach, celery, orange
1 quart romaine, celery, cilantro, garlic, lemon, sprouts, kelp
1 quart leaf lettuce, celery, sprouts, apple

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today ??

Sleep
7.5 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
Chanca Piedra
B12
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse

Exercise
None

Physically
I am feeling better today. The sore on my throat is almost gone thank goodness. That was a painful thing. I am less fuzzy today. Not quite 100% yet but definitely on the way to recovery.

Positive changes
Smooth skin
Losing weight
Tons of mental energy

Detox
coated tongue
Super thirsty
bumps on arms and legs
pale as the snow that fell today

Emotionally
I am just on fire. My kids weren't home today and I got a ton of stuff done. It feels good. Now I should go and take a shower since I didn't manage to get that done today.

Cravings
Food. I want to chew.

Meditation
None

Ramblings
I chose the above picture for today because I feel that it expresses the juice feast perfectly. It is a ride, just like a roller coaster with it's ups and downs. There is fear and trepidation, exhilaration and excitement. There are periods when you feel like you are on top of the world and then there are times when you feel like you might throw up. When you put all the pieces together you are left with something so fun and wonderful that you want to do it again and again.
When I am in the down periods of my cleansing, it helps me to remember the up times. I know that goes against living in the moment but when the moment sucks it's nice to have something else to keep you going.
I had a comment from someone who said that my detox symptoms are scary. I was kind of struck by it and then I felt like, well, it's kind of true. I don't know why I seem to be struggling more than the majority of the people that are juice feasting. To look at me you would never guess there was this much going on inside this body. I struggle with this because there have been times when I was afraid to post something because I don't want to scare people away who are thinking about doing this. And sometimes I feel like I get sick and tired of posting about how crappy I feel.
But then I remember how important it is to be true to myself and true to everyone out there reading. My journey is just that, MY journey. It has been filled with the ups and the downs and I have learned so much from it. I have grown and shrunk (in size :o) and I am going to come out of this thing better than I went in.
I guess I had hopes that this was going to be it for me. This was my magic bullet and I would go on this juice feast for 92 days and I would be cured of everything that ails me. I think I am realizing that that was unrealistic and that this is simply a stepping stone to learning who I am and learning how to nourish myself and love myself back to health. When I am finished with this feast (in 38 days!) I will keep moving in the direction of greater health and vibrancy.
I read this transcript from Karen Knowler today. It was about the 5 levels of transformation that we go through when we change over to a raw diet. I won't go into all of them but the thing that struck me was that there was no number 6. She said that what she found was that after a person reached level 5 they began again at level 1 this time with new thoughts, new revelations and they can awaken at a different level.
I think it is easy to look for the finish line and to want to be cured or to be thin. Then what? I ask myself this a lot. Then what? There is no finish line. We just keep going, getting better and better everyday. Expanding and becoming more true to ourselves. I like Karen's idea about cycling through again. I feel that I will be beginning a new cycle on April 29th. I will be approaching life with fresh eyes and a renewed spirit for living life to the fullest and savoring life.

4 comments:

Linda in the Raw said...

We are always cycling through, new awakening, spititual growth, it never ends. That's why it is so exciting!! Continual growth = scary, uncomfortable, FABULOUS!!

You're doing great! Don't worry about the detox, like you said, better out than in!!

xoxo,
Linda

Lisa, aka Pixywinks said...

I went into it kinda hoping it would be a "magic bullet" for me too. I'm realizing too, that it isn't, but it's a stepping stone to greater understanding and growth. It's also ok with me that it isn't a cure-all. It's the journey that is the exciting part. We will never stop "becoming".
Hope you feel better,
XOXXOX
Pixy Lisa

Hanlie said...

How true! I also thought this was going to be my magic bullet, but I've come to realize that it's my turning point. The journey continues. Thank you for such an eloquent, thoughtful post!

It seems my symptoms are cycling too. I have a fresh outbreak on my hands again. It will get better!

Penni said...

There is much wisdom in your writings today. We all want the magic pill or bullet, don't we? This is a ride and even though we each have to ride our own journey, I love having people like you that I know are on this ride along side me. Juicing is a way to bring back harmony in our bodies and since it took a long time to get where we were, it will also take ample time to repair and heal. Just remember, you've come along way baby!
xo...Penni