Friday, February 8, 2008

Day 12

Photo by Robokow on Flickr
Juices, Supplements etc. in order of consumption
Orange, Spinach
5 oranges, 1/2 lb spinach
yum!

Cucumber, Apple, Kale, Romaine, Ginger
1 cucumber, 1 apple, 3 kale leaves, 1 head romaine, 1 inch ginger
Good.

Pineapple, Spinach, Celery, Mint
1/2 small pineapple, 1/2 pound spinach, 1/2 head celery, handful mint
Ooooooh I looooove pineapple and mint. Delish!

Swiss Chard, celery, carrot, red pepper, garlic, green onion cilantro, hemp oil, kelp
2 stalks Swiss chard, 1/2 head celery, 4 oz carrots, 1/2 red pepper, 1 clove garlic, 1 green onion
Spicy! It was good though.

I am trying to figure out why this particular juice keeps separating. I have tried it without the carrot and without the tomato but I still find crunchy chunks in the bottom and have to throw it away. I will keep trying.

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today

Sleep
hours 7 hours

Exercise
Five Tibetans

Physically
I feel good. I woke up feeling groggy and fuzzy but it lifted and then I felt good.

Positive changes
Skin looks good
I smell like celery instead of B.O.
I look more vibrant
Thinking has cleared a bit

Detox
Coated tongue
Hands are dry
Mucus in throat
Clear, fluid filled bump is back on my lip
I'm freezing

Cravings
Oh baby, bring 'em on! I was hit with a big one today! I went grocery shopping today at my Italian grocery store and when I walked in the door I was overwhelmed with the smell of Italian food! Oh the horror of it! It is my absolute favorite food on the planet. I love Italian food!

I did pretty good while shopping and then I was in the check out line and I started wondering why I have this attachment to Italian food. I wasn't really clear on what I was thinking but it brought up a big surge of emotion in me and I almost started to cry right there in the line.

Emotionally
When I got home from shopping I sat down and did a Journey process. Finally after 12 days I got my Journey in. I focused on the lure of Italian food and I was shocked at the power of the emotion that came up.

I went back to a memory of when I was a child and this deep loneliness and sadness came up. I went through the entire process and emptied out all the feelings of unworthiness, loneliness, emptiness that I had with the people in the memory and I was able to forgive everyone completely, including myself.

When I went to free myself of the attachment to this food I was surprised that I couldn't do it. When I looked deeper I realized that I had a strong belief around this food. Here is what came out; This food is my love. Wow, so powerful. How could I give up something that is my love? Well, I did a quick belief change and replaced it with a new belief that I am my love. That did the trick and I was free.

I can't tell you how powerful this process can be. It has freed me of so much emotional baggage over the past 2 years and now it is helping release my addiction to food. It is simply amazing.

Trash Bag Tango
I cleaned out a drawer in my kitchen.

Meditation
15 minutes listening to the Moola Mantra

Ramblings
I realized this morning that I didn't have my son's reality store this week. It is next week. It's so funny because I have this huge dry erase board on my wall that I sectioned off into a weekly calendar. It has a spot for each person in the family for each day of the week. I am so good about keeping it up to date so that everyone knows what is going on. It is only as good as my calendar though. If I write the wrong date on the yearly calendar then I end up doing stuff like this. Hee hee. Oh well, no harm no foul.

My mom is coming tomorrow night to watch the kids so my husband and I can go out. It is so funny because we are both at a loss for what we should do. We can't go out to eat. I am not sure I am up to being in a movie theater with popcorn! One addiction at a time thank you very much. We can't go to a bar, it's freezing outside so we can't take a nice walk or anything. We really have no idea. Any suggestions?

3 comments:

Ben Kaelan said...

I'm not sure where you live but are there any juice bars around? Perhaps go to a nice cozy coffee shop for some warm tea. :) Most of my social outings have been to coffee shops lately; nice chats over warm tea.

PS: Katrina Rainoshek told me once that cravings will get quieter as you go further into your juice feast... I think she told me this on day 12... it's day 27 for me now and I have to say she's absolutely right! Hang in there! :)

Hanlie said...

Go dancing! I'm hoping my husband will take me to a juice bar tomorrow. It's sometimes nice to have someone else make the juice once in a while, you know?

Your Journeys has reminded me that I have a book on EFT here that I haven't touched yet! I think it's time...

(These Word Verifications drive me mad - I'm a Virgo and cannot type a "q" without following with a "u"!)

Michelle said...

Ben, Thanks for the tips and the support. I am actually grateful for the cravings. I want to clean the up and clear them out as much as possible before I go back to eating. I am going to look and see if there is a juic bar around.

Hanlie,
Being a virgo explains the neatness in you. ;o)