Sunday, April 6, 2008

Day 70

Photo by Country Girl at Heart on Flickr



Juices in order of consumption
1 quart celery, spinach, orange

1 quart celery, leaf lettuce, tomato, cilantro, lemon, bean sprouts, garlic

1 quart celery, romaine, tomato, snap peas, bean sprouts, garlic

1 quart celery, romaine, mango, pineapple

Weight
Starting 173.5
Today 141.5

Oh my gosh, I finally lost some weight. It's been ages! Yippee! 32 lbs baby!

Sleep
8 hours

Supplements
Probiotic
B12
B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Colon Cleanse
MSM

Exercise
Did some walking outside.

Physically
I had a great day. My energy is up, the weather was fantastic and I felt so happy all day. I had no headache! I did have a weird thing happen. I went and got a double shot of wheatgrass juice at Jamba Juice. I have done this a bunch of times before and during the juice feast (I always forget to write it down). Well today it made me nauseaus. I was feeling sick for quite a while with waves of nausea. I have heard other people talk about this but I have never experienced it. Today was a first. It passed after about 1 1/2 -2 hours.

Emotionally
I had a great day emotionally. I felt so light and happy, like I wanted to jump and sing. It is wonderful. I can honestly say that feeling lousy really gives you an appreciation for feeling good.

Cravings
NONE!

Meditation
None

Ramblings
It's amazing to me that I felt as good as I did today since I was plagued with nightmares all night. I kept waking myself up in the middle of nightmares that had to do with serial killers, murderous plans, and accidental family deaths. It was pretty bad. Usually when I have these kinds of dreams I feel a bit funky all day long. Luckily I was able to shake it off pretty easily. I haven't had nightmares like this in a while so I am wondering why now. Bizarre.

I have also noticed that my hair is falling out again. This happened to me when I went raw before. It was really bad. I have really thick hair and I lost so much of it I had to get a new haircut to make it look better. I was used to getting haircuts for a person with thick hair and my girl had to give me a cut for a person with thin hair. It was a bit scary and was one of the things that pushed me to stop eating raw. Now, my hair is not falling out as much as before but I was pulling out quite a bit while brushing so I guess it may be coming again. Ugh! I don't like it.

I was so thrilled with myself today. I went to the previous mentioned Italian restaurant with my family. I sat at the table as they dipped the bread in the oil and cheese. I dished out the spaghetti and meatballs and chicken parmigiana to my kids. I passed the roasted potatoes, the mushroom ravioli, the chopped salad, and the lasagna and I watched as they ate lemon cookies. And guess what!!! I could have cared less!!! I mean it. I really didn't care. There wasn't a little part of me niggling away and feeling bad while I put on a happy face. I truly didn't care. It was awesome!

I feel so empowered today. Going out to that restaurant was like winning a prestigious award. No one else gave me any recognition though. I don't need it. I rocked it out tonight and I feel like I am in charge of my life in a way that I have never been before. It is so cool! I finally feel like I am me. I am Michelle. I am not my father's daughter, my children's mother, my husbands wife. I am just me. Who I am meant to be for better or for worse and I make my decisions and I live the life I choose. It feels fantastic!

4 comments:

MARYYX said...

If anyone had told me I would start craving savory green juices - I'd have told them they were nuts.

Yours sound good. I was so shocked the day I was literally craving a savory juice!

Ending the day with a blueberry, tangerine, lettuce smoothie. Yum
Maryyx

Lisa, aka Pixywinks said...

Great going Michelle! I'm so proud of you. That's actually how I feel too...totally in charge of ME, even tho I didn't think of it like that. Tonight one of my co-workers came over and chatted while I juiced. She told me I have tremendous willpower to go to a burger joint and just have juice while all of them ate. I told her it really didn't, but she didn't believe me. But really it didn't, 'cause the LAST thing I want is a nasty colon clogging burger and greasy onion rings. Bleck!!!!!
Hip hip hooray for juicy sanity!
Glad you are feeling better.
XO
Pixy Lisa

Hanlie said...

You know how sometimes when you read something you have an almost immediate physical reaction to it? Like a flash behind your eyes and a tightening of the throat, and then you get tears in your eyes. I got that when I read your last paragraph. That is so important my whole being is reacting to it! Once again you have given me a key... now I just need to find the right door. Thanks Michelle, you rock!

Penni said...

Another great post!! I relate to your writing about the experience in the restaurant. It really is empowering to realize that we can be surrounded by delicious, savory foods (Italian is my favorite) and not have to indulge. Certain foods are like a drug to me and it feels so amazing to free and have that monkey off my back!

Congratulations on Day 70!!