Monday, April 14, 2008

Day 78

Photo by Hold that Tiger on Flickr

Juices in order of consumption
1 quart orange, celery, spinach, spirulina

shot flax, evening primrose oil

1/2 quart celery, tomato, romaine, garlic, onion, chlorella

1 quart orange celery, spinach

While consuming the second juice of the day I was overcome with nausea and had to stop half way through. I felt a bit sick for a while. I decided to go with a second quart of my favorite juice of the day so I could be happy. :o)

Starting 173.5
Today ??

7 hours

B5 morning and evening
Enzymes with each juice
Vitamin D

1 hour yoga
1 mile on treadmill
Weight training

Other than the nausea I felt good. I was a bit fatigued from the treadmill but I know it will get better the more I do it. It feels good to be working my body more. I should have started a lot sooner. Now I just need to keep it I WILL keep it up.

I am doing pretty good today despite the events of yesterday. I think the workout gave me this inner strength that has helped. Mostly I am feeling pretty good. I am trying to spend some time reflecting on events and how I am feeling about them but I am also trying to stay present with what is going on in the moment too.


After my yoga class I approached the instructor and asked her if she had any suggestions for exercises I could do to improve my stomach. She took me out to the different stations and showed me 4 ab exercises, 3 leg, and how to use a pull up machine. It was a bit sad how weak I was and I know she was surprised. She said, "You've got a lot of work to do." Ha ha, no kidding. I was really grateful that she took the time to do it so I can continue to work on it.

My oldest son did not come home again today. He stayed at his dad's. I called him to see how he is doing and he seemed a bit short and had a headache so I hope he is OK. He said he is coming home tomorrow for which I am grateful. We need to talk.

My second son played his first baseball game today since getting his cast off. He was so excited. He texted me in the middle of the day to tell me he couldn't wait to play. He was so disappointed when he didn't start (so was I) because the coach told him he would. He didn't get in until the 5th inning so he was a bit disappointed. He had a great hit his first time at bat, stole a base and made it home. Yay!!! He struck out the second time at bat. I promise I won't tell you about every game :o)

The last few days of the juice feasting website have been about vegetarianism and the impact it has on the environment, our bodies, our spirits and our souls. There is so much fantastic information there and I have a deep understanding of the truth in it. It all make perfect sense and there is a part of me that can't seem to say, "I am a vegan. I will never eat meat again in my life." I can say that I will eat a raw, vegan diet but that isn't permanent.

For the most part I don't even want to eat any meat. I am not drawn to it with the exception of my homemade meatballs in the pasta sauce I make. Other than that I can't think of meat that I would want to eat.

As a kid I didn't really like meat all that much either. It wasn't until I started dating my first husband that I started eating lots of meat. I don't know what it is that is keeping me from making the decision to BE a vegan. I have to start making decisions about how I am going to eat when I finish this feast. I am 14 days away from breaking my feast and I think it is a good idea to have a plan.

I am committed to continuing a strict raw diet for the summer for sure. I think it will allow me to continue to detox and clean out and will help my body. I enjoyed eating raw over the summer the last time and I think it is so much easier. I want to continue to eat raw in the fall and winter etc and I don't want to feel as if I can't have an occasional soup or something. Of course there is always the idea of one day at a time and I think that philosophy will transfer from the juice feast to my permanent eating lifestyle.

OK, I really am rambling now. I need to get to bed.


Hanlie said...

I really understand where you're coming from. I know that animal products are very bad for our health, and the environment, and I don't need it, but I still can't commit to NEVER having it... The same with raw. I can only commit to upwards of 80% raw. For now! I think it's important for me to adopt that kind of life (high raw, mostly vegan) after my juice feast, instead of setting such high standards that I may not be able to stick with them. I have disappointed myself too often in the past, and that feeling of blowing it has always caused me to backslide completely. I can't afford that anymore. I feel as if another failure would kill me!

Glad you're feeling better! You'll be amazed at how quickly your body responds to the exercise.

Penni said...

When I went to Successfully Raw in NYC, I heard a lot about giving up the whole percentage of raw concept. Karen Knowler especially told us to stop it with comparing ourselves..."What % of raw are you? 75%, 85%, 100%?" She said we should all focus the big picture and what is going to work best in each of our individual lives. Somehow that felt really empowering and freeing. I think we must just set our intentions on what is going to be realistic and leave a little room for those rare and special times when we want the meatball treat.

I can't believe you only have two more weeks!

MARYYX said...

Hi Michelle
I have to go with the one day at a time philosophy myself. To think of not doing - or doing - anything forever can be a bit daunting. It is so much easier to say, "Today, I will . . ."

I am going to call you in regard to the project we discussed. I am just working through some mental resistance.

I think Penni's comment presents a very balanced view. Black and white thinking - i.e. requiring perfection of ourselves - can be deadly.

Wow! 14 days away from the end of your Juice Feast. That is amazing.